Wow, that's quite a list you've got there! I'll do my best to undo the confusion.

First, I want to let you know that I am not a practitioner of any kind so please accept the following only as an exchange of information and ideas.

It's great that the chanting was able to open your mind enough so that you are committed to making some changes.

I believe that since you've waited so long to get back to your original preference (you were a vegetarian in your twenties) that it might be best now to take it step-by-step, so as not to overwhelm yourself.

1) First, if I were you, I would eliminate the meat altogether and increase the amount of raw vegetables that you eat. Have a pint of fresh juice for breakfast and 1/2 hour later some fresh fruit or fruit blended with some soaked oats or buckwheat and dates or raisins. Have a raw salad for lunch and a raw salad with dinner. I would continue to eat a little cooked whole food. Meat is an addiction, so it might take some doing to shake it. If you eat a little cooked food, such as at your evening meal, you may not feel like you are giving up too much at one time. Do this for approx. 1 to 2 months.

2) Next phase. Drop the cooked food for dinner and replace it with a prepared raw food dish, even if it is a fancy dish with nuts or a pate made with nuts and vegetables or raw pizza or any of the more fancy raw food dishes. Make sure what you make is tasty to you. It has to be tasty because now that you've given up the meat, you are in the second phase of giving up the cooked food and you want to make sure the raw food that you eat for dinner is going to be satisfying. Also, have with that dinner some dehydrated crackers. Plan ahead and make sure you are satisfied. This is a good time to experiment with raw recipes to find the ones that taste good to you.

3) Phase three will just happen naturally. It may take one year or five, but eventually your own body will be telling you to simplify your diet. You don't have to push this. It will just unfold naturally. Sometimes you will want the more fancy prepared raw food, and other times you will be happy and satisfied with the simpler fare. Either way, it's all good.

While buying organic is best, if you can't get all your items organic, don't fret. I don't think anyone can. We just do the best we can. You said you did not want to become a raw vegan or vegetarian without going organic too. I want to clarify one thing, eating conventional produce raw is still better than eating conventional produce cooked. You see the cooking does not destroy the pesticides or other chemicals in the produce. By consuming it raw you would be getting whatever nutrients, antioxidants, etc. are in there in their optimal form.

Another clarification, going raw doesn't necessarily mean you have to give yourself an enema. You may want to give yourself a few enemas or go get some colonics but it's not absolutely necessary to make the switchover. So again, on this point, I would go through phase 1 first and get through that before I think about enemas or colonics. Step-by-step – take it nice and easy… cause it'll be hard enough.

You say you are bored and use food to substitute for a lot of things that could be in your life. I have a suggestion. During this time that you are devoting to the switchover, find someone to help… like perhaps a relative's child or a child from an orphanage or somebody to help in some way. That will get your mind off yourself and this great effort you are making and onto someone else that might benefit greatly from your attention. I guarantee that it will be very rewarding.

A program such as I've outlined, with some personal tweaking to allow for individualities, will bring anyone to their natural state of vibrant health. All dis-eases fall away with the return of an alkaline body.

Wishing you awesome health and the best of everything good.

With blessings,